I deeply apologize for stepping away from this blog for so long….I endured some very personal struggles that just would not allow me to write. I am back and God has prepared me to continue on with his work and this is one area in which that work needs to continue.

As we gather today to embrace this day, I urge all of us “guys” to stand shoulder a to shoulder with one another and give ourselves to our wives today in ways that she will be honored, who God has created her to be.

The song that is ringing in my ears today is Mary did You Know….what must it had been like, what is it like today in the kingdom, what will it be like in the world yet to come……

Let us lift all of what have to Him. The One True God. There not a sin that He can’t forgive. Let us live in the grace of that.

The first step to finding the true healing that only comes from our God, is one that is feared the most. It is one that will usually come sometime after we find ourselves somewhere on the “bottom”.  When we have pretty much lost all hope, but yet struggling day by day to hang on to that one thread. This is where this friend of mine is today.

Fear is a great force that Satan loves for us to keep tightly and securely wrapped up with in ourselves. For if there is fear, there is always room for doubt. Doubt that God really cares, that He really listens, that He’s really as big as people say he really is. Satan can hold so at bay for as long as we continue to live with that kind of fear.

My prayer for my friend and all of us, is that we can trust God with all of that. Let him have it all, and fear nothing. Allow God to be the God that He really is and come and live in you, in us. He created you, us for bigger things, bigger reasons than we can even begin to understand.

My wife came home the other day with some cool sunglasses and a T-shirt from a work. They had a “walk-a-thon” on support of suicide help. It brought me back to a point in my own journey that I have to write about……cause He told me to.

You won’t relent until you have it all………………………………………….even if it means rescuing me from the want to go to the grave…………………………….not have to answer for those dark things that I buried so deep……so long ago…..no; you wouldn’t give up even if I said “I quit”…….”Satan, you win I can’t fight this one it’s over”. I spent many hours weeping with Godly sorrow, I knew that I was not accepted any longer. I knew that I had been completely exposed and I could not go beyond the shame and hurt of it all.

If this is you, if these words find there way in to your heart today as you read them. I have good news for you. I want to share some “rhema” words with you. Your Father, your Heavenly Father, “LOVES YOU!!!!!” and no matter how much it may hurt right now….. He wants to help heal that hurt and show you what more and better life looks, and feels like. No matter how much shame may be wrapped up in it; your Father wants to replace that shame  with Godly sorrow  and then He wants to build a mansion with in your heart, to live in you and through you. And……. He won’t relent until he does!

Christ went to that cross to forgive us of all our sins. And if that were all that was there…..if that is all we walk away with……. not as if that wasn’t enough, that wasn’t something great and worthy again of great celebration. But….. there’s more; a lot more. “Freedom”!!!!

You see not only did he give us the forgiveness for all of what it is that we have been up to. But, the biggest added punch was that he offered us “freedom” from those things in which we seek that forgiveness for, that we don’t have to live with this black cloud hanging over our heads for forever. That all of that in which we call out from the wilderness in that loud voice “Lord save me, from all this wickedness”! He reaches out grabs hold of you and pulls you back to sit right on his lap. And then gives you “freedom” to live in complete relationship with him.

They hauled a prostitute-in front of Jesus one day, ready to stone her to death, but they asked that one important question; “this woman has broken the laws of Moses what will you have us do with her?” And Jesus not only offers forgiveness to this woman, like that wouldn’t be enough. No, He gives her “freedom”; to live in complete relationship with Him.

Today is Independence Day July “4″ 2009, yes that is true indeed. And today is a day to be celebrated for that in which many many years age our fore fathers gave us this day to live in freedom with in the worldly picture. That we can live with all of that in which we as humans can have tangibly. But; today is a day much bigger that all of that for me and my family. We not only will celebrate today as July 4 2009 Independence  Day;  Today is a day of “Freedom” from all of that in which I have been up to and that black cloud it has given way to clear blue sky!

This is what we all want. To have every moment in relationship with the God of creation. To have the freedom to live with Him and allow Him to live with in us. That when people bump into us they take that second look, there’s something different, changed about you. Yeah! He’s Alive in me today, let me invite you in. Come and join with all of God’s people. I pray “Open Up the Sky” shower your creation with all of what it is that you have to say to us, we want to hear from you! Let today be that day that God speaks directly, “rhema” words just to you.

I like to use music in a lot of posts, it helps me to put all of what it is God wants me to say to all those who will take the time to read and listen. As I posted if if will take that big/huge step and empty all of that “stuff”, He promises us that He will be there to rescue us from that place and begin to lead us to a more and better life than we could have ever dreamed possible. Let Him come and rescue you, let today be that day for you.

The first and biggest step that I took was this one.  Emptying myself of all that “stuff”, that I had hid some even from myself. If you really want to know God, take this step. It was once said; “that’s one small step for a man, and one huge step for mankind”. I’d like to re-word it just a little: It’s one big step for any being, and one huge step for His creation! If this is where you are today; it’s okay. Your safe and your in the right place, right where God wants you to be. Trust Him, He has got you and your okay….go ahead, empty it all on Him.

Hold that answer in your hand as you continue to read through this entire post and let God speak some “rhema” words to you…..

Imagination…..such a powerful ability. That power alone makes us so much like our father. But without wisdom, imagination is a cruel taskmaster! A weapon of destruction of your very soul!

Let me explain; do you think that we as human beings were designed to live in the present or the past or the future? I think the most obvious answer is that we were designed to live in the present……right?

Relax….yes that is correct. But now tell me; where do you spend most of your time in your mind, in your imagination, in the present, in the past, or in the future? If I answer this honestly; I spend little time in the present, a lot of time in the past, and also time in the future trying to figure out what that’s suppose to look like. Now if we turn to our father, he might say something like this; when I dwell with you, when I come and stay with you, I do so in the present……I live in the present moment! Not the past, although much can be remembered and learned by looking at the past. A view in the rear view mirror, but only for a visit, a look. Not an extended stay!!! Do not set up camp and just camp out here!!! And also for sure do not dwell in the future you visualize or imagine. Your imagination here of the future, which is almost always dictated by fear of some kind, rarely, if ever, pictures of our father are there with us.

Why do we do this?  It is our desperate attempt to get some control over something you can’t. It is impossible for you take power, or control over the future because it isn’t even real, nor will it ever be real. We try to play God, imagining the evil that you fear becomming reality, and then you try and make plans to avoid what you fear.

So why do we hang on to so much fear in our lives?……..because we don’t believe. A very dear friend of mine once said; “you can trust God with our greatest pain” can I change that to read like this; “you can trust God with your greatest fear”. The person who lives by their fears will not find freedom in His love. Now I’m not talking about rational fears regarding dangers, but the imagined fears, and especially the projection of those into the future. To the degree that those fears have a place in your life. And you don’t believe that He is just that good, that He loves you just that much! You sing about it, you talk about it, but you don’t know it to it’s fullness in which God deeply wants to pour out to you.

So……….what was your answer when you started?

What is your answer now?……….God blessing rest with all of us.

Wouldn’t like God to give you his answer for that question? I mean if you had that 1-800-# directly to God himself, couldn’t you just hear yourself asking that question to him? Why is it that we struggle so hard to look and search and run around trying to find the right answer to this question so many, many time in our lives?

I know this one real well, for me I lived 2/3rds of my lifetime already and most of it was spent looking for the right answer to that very question. There were a lot of times in my life when I truly thought I had found the answer. Only to return to the same ole lifestyle that had brought me searching in the first place. I did all the right things; I attended church, I was involved in the church, in our community. I had relationships, or well, the ones that saw things the way I did, therefore we could stand on the same ground together. I just was left each time hungry and thirsty for something more; something a lot better……and yet I continued to go on searching, looking, just hoping that it was right around the bend. That maybe one more baby, or new car, or maybe a new house; yeah that’s it new house, new location, start over. Then we will find the answer to that question.

Yeah, I found the answer to that question in the most un-likely spot. I woke up in CCU after giving up on ever being able to find it, giving up on this world and what ever this world delights were. I left this world momentarily; and I found the answer that I had so desperately searched for.

Our God is so big and so awesome, that he saved me for a bigger reason then even I understand today. I really don’t know why I am still here in this world; there really is only one reason why I am…..God rescued me!

I have to tell all of my readers; God wants this for you too. He wants to rescue you today! Where ever you are in what ever it is that you face today, He is right there to rescue you and to give you the keys to unlock the answer to that question. It’s easy you see….The answer? He wants to live in you, He wants to be with you every moment, and for you to live with Him every moment. If you dare to take this mind set on and allow Him to come and take root in you, and you give Him all of you.

IT IS THEN YOU WILL FIND THE ANSWER……